you!!
I think i miss you .....
I'm not thinking about what u r doing right now or somrthing like that.
I want to know how you think of me.
Do i better not to send you e-mail for you not to think of me...??
ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
I didn't go to date with him.... Because I was hasitating to go.
Because... maybe i better not to go with him. My act will make him think like I
still love him as not just friend. i told him how i think too. but he said it doesn'
matter, don't think so hard. just friend!!
but just like a week ago, he told me that he still loves me...
today i stayed home bymyself and i thought about him too... specially now, i
mean, night time... u know night espesially midnight makes us think think
think... some people get sad or lonely ....some kind of like the feeling ,that's
what i got feel like too. ...how CRAZY!!!! 
why do i feel like that?? Because, I'm listening love song which is yahoo's
sound station. 
Then don't listen such a love song!! somebody gonna say that lol
it is not god weather these days rainig rainig cloudy cloudy....
haaaaaaaaaaaa and kinda chill too. it is not hot anymore??
I wanna go shopping!! wanna get cutty cutty boot and short trench coat!!
Girl always wanna be cute cute cute and cutter than anybody
and that is truth!!
I get so negative sometimes, maybe almost everyday...But I get little better or more when somebody tells me that you are so wonderful or what you're doing is right.
Maybe I'm seeking somebody's agreed with what I'm doing now..
Day before yesterday I asked mom that is there anything like worth of what I'm doing now?? she said yeah!! of course!! you are growing by everyday!! I wanted cry so much when she said that to me.
Of course I can see what I want to do in my future and I know what I should do right now for my future. But I'm getting so tired. I don't know what giving up is.and never try to do that in my ever life.
So maybe I'm doing too much again even thereis different ways to do for my life which can be replace of what I'm doing right now (like as doing part time job every single day...and I feel like I can't do anything else..can't have time to think about any other things.)
ok. What I most want to say and most desiring is i want to have fun anytime, even i have to go work and even if I'm working.
Let me have fun more!!! Let me get out of this crazy freaking time!!
最近すっご涙もろくって困る。
今日ね、前うちにいた留学生の子がロシアからおみやげ送ってくれてうちのパパに
なんか本革の良さそうなお財布買ってきてくれたの。でもパパはそれを部屋に飾って
て全然使おうとしないもんだから「なんで使わないの～？
」って聞いたら、「だって
パパのお財布にこれが貼ってあるからね
」
って見たら、あたしとあたしの妹の写真が生まれた時の写真がちっちゃいステッカー
みたいになってお財布の裏側に貼ってあったの。 すっごいうれしくって、涙が出そう
になっちゃった。
てか涙出ちゃってトイレにかけこんだっ
家ん中だっつぅのに
父親の心の温かさ温かさを感じた夜でした
ぁ。ファザコンじゃぁないわよっ
明日は晴れますよぉ～～にぃっ
さっきからずーーっと雨降ってる。
多分今日の朝から。
ぬぁぁ～んでぇだぁ～～
空が灰色で、心まで灰色に。。。とかャなんだけどっ
せっかくの休みなのにさぁ～
いいもんねっ。 美味しいもん食べてやるっ。
多分今日の朝から。
ぬぁぁ～んでぇだぁ～～
空が灰色で、心まで灰色に。。。とかャなんだけどっ
せっかくの休みなのにさぁ～
いいもんねっ。 美味しいもん食べてやるっ。