Thinking of... what?

hmm

I started thinking of him again,,.
How come? because I got hurted by somebody?
maybe that thing reflected me turning into think about him again?
What is that? DO I really need it...
Maybe I miss the time with him when I feel tired, or stressed because it was such a nice time being together with him. But I know that he is not what I need for putting the negative or stressed or sad or whatever feeling away. He might be the person IF he was here. He could be the person who can make me feel so much better easily. But the thing is.. he is not here. oh ya.
Hey go away!!! go my this loneliness feeling that sometimes appear in my mind, and reminds me about that time away please!! No need to remind me about the time that has passed away　already. I just want to see the forward of my future.
And I do not want to struggle with that thing again, and again because it hurted me so bad, and I had so much upset.
Oh my god.
What do you do now?
Would you remember me sometimes? by what?
I didn't write all this on my mixi diary as today's diary, so I just put this on my blog.

oh...
Good bye.