Oct 11, 2007 
When I was a kid, I thought people over 30 are completely mature that always have right answers to everything and make no mistakes. Now I turned 34 last July. Here I am, immature, weak, timid, and always not sure about what I am doing... I don't feel like I became a perfect person. In fact I am not. Far opposite from perfect, I think. I am still myself, in the middle of growing.
I started a part-time work at Starbuck recently, which gave me an opportunities to meet many young people, such as university students and those who has just graduated. Mostly they are in their early and late 20's.
I thought I had not changed or improved much comparing to myself in their age but, talking to them, I come to remember those days and realize how thing have been changed both inward and outward of me.
For the past years, I have been feeling I have lost some kind of energy. It is enthusiasm, I guess, which they have plenty.
It is also the policy and the way of training at Starbuck that being creative, spontaneously dedicating when at work, but, I am overwhelmed by them actually. They really like working there and wants to improve the shop from the bottom of their heart! That is pure enthusiasm!
When I was around 28 working at a fast-food cafe, I was kind of like them. I was very enthusiastic. It was very fun working there. I even believed I had a calling. I loved the cafe and co-workers very very much.
...Some things happened and I lost faith in them in the end though...
It was my fault. I was so naive that the world has to be fair. How was I be able to think that way, living in such an unfair field??!!
Anyways, since then, I am afraid of loving and dedicating. I felt I was so betrayed. ---FYI, they did not technically betray me.--- I did't want be hurt like that anymore. See, this is why I am timid that I still have cold feet to move on.
Maybe working at Starbucks could be another opportunity for me to be improved. I am still overwhelmed that I got stomachache though, I think I will ask them to share some fresh enthusiasm.
When I was a kid, I thought people over 30 are completely mature that always have right answers to everything and make no mistakes. Now I turned 34 last July. Here I am, immature, weak, timid, and always not sure about what I am doing... I don't feel like I became a perfect person. In fact I am not. Far opposite from perfect, I think. I am still myself, in the middle of growing.
I started a part-time work at Starbuck recently, which gave me an opportunities to meet many young people, such as university students and those who has just graduated. Mostly they are in their early and late 20's.
I thought I had not changed or improved much comparing to myself in their age but, talking to them, I come to remember those days and realize how thing have been changed both inward and outward of me.
For the past years, I have been feeling I have lost some kind of energy. It is enthusiasm, I guess, which they have plenty.
It is also the policy and the way of training at Starbuck that being creative, spontaneously dedicating when at work, but, I am overwhelmed by them actually. They really like working there and wants to improve the shop from the bottom of their heart! That is pure enthusiasm!
When I was around 28 working at a fast-food cafe, I was kind of like them. I was very enthusiastic. It was very fun working there. I even believed I had a calling. I loved the cafe and co-workers very very much.
...Some things happened and I lost faith in them in the end though...
It was my fault. I was so naive that the world has to be fair. How was I be able to think that way, living in such an unfair field??!!
Anyways, since then, I am afraid of loving and dedicating. I felt I was so betrayed. ---FYI, they did not technically betray me.--- I did't want be hurt like that anymore. See, this is why I am timid that I still have cold feet to move on.
Maybe working at Starbucks could be another opportunity for me to be improved. I am still overwhelmed that I got stomachache though, I think I will ask them to share some fresh enthusiasm.
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