June 8, 2009 
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My body temperature dropped down to 36.72 ℃ this morning. I was so relieved that I would soon be released from feeling depressed. I know from it that I will have my period in a day or two.
Finally!! Yey!
When I was young, things used to be very easy. No cramps or being moody. ...Now, it is like nightmare...
As far as I remember, it started when I was around 28. My life was pretty stressful. I think it definitely caused it. I came to had bad cramps that I could barely move throughout my period. What was worse was headache. It was years later that I leant the dreadful headache was caused by my periods. It skewered my temple in the heart thudding cycle.. In order to withstand the repetitive pain, I had to freeze myself with my palm against my temple each time it hurted. And the worst was depressed feeling. I always felt blue and the world felt so unfair.. I had lots and lots to do but I was not really in the mood of doing them.. I needed great efforts to forse myfelf to do. It was energy-consuming..
As time passed, and as I stayed away from the stresses, I got physically better. However, ..however! The depression like feeling seems never be gone.. I just don't know what to do...!
Anyway I got over the depression this month. I feel pretty good today that I could finish two heaps of the laundry.
People, please wish me luck that Yoshi will be able to tolerate me being f=cking moody! Yoshi, please don't devorce with me!
//My body temperature dropped down to 36.72 ℃ this morning. I was so relieved that I would soon be released from feeling depressed. I know from it that I will have my period in a day or two.
Finally!! Yey!
When I was young, things used to be very easy. No cramps or being moody. ...Now, it is like nightmare...
As far as I remember, it started when I was around 28. My life was pretty stressful. I think it definitely caused it. I came to had bad cramps that I could barely move throughout my period. What was worse was headache. It was years later that I leant the dreadful headache was caused by my periods. It skewered my temple in the heart thudding cycle.. In order to withstand the repetitive pain, I had to freeze myself with my palm against my temple each time it hurted. And the worst was depressed feeling. I always felt blue and the world felt so unfair.. I had lots and lots to do but I was not really in the mood of doing them.. I needed great efforts to forse myfelf to do. It was energy-consuming..
As time passed, and as I stayed away from the stresses, I got physically better. However, ..however! The depression like feeling seems never be gone.. I just don't know what to do...!
Anyway I got over the depression this month. I feel pretty good today that I could finish two heaps of the laundry.
People, please wish me luck that Yoshi will be able to tolerate me being f=cking moody! Yoshi, please don't devorce with me!
Maybe, I should do something for you.
How to do?
You have already done a great thing! To worry about me! I am glad to know that there is someone caring about me. It is so encouraging and helps me a lot, you know.
Thank you sooooooo much!