Friends from Junior high school

Mar 25, 2011 /

 

I don't have kids. When I meet old friends who have kids, I kind of gird up somehow. I know absolutely no need to get overwhelmed, but I still get nervous a little.  I can't talk about kids' school or teachers when those kind of conversation starts.  Also, I am afraid of how the friends would think of me.  I don't raise kids. Doesn't it mean I am wasting my life? Shouldn't I be in the phase to raise kids?   I know it depends on each person's life but I still have a sense of inferiority.  I can't accept entirely what I am doing now...

 

Two of my friends from Junior High came over to my place today.  They each have two kids and they brought their kids.  My house suddenly became like a kindergarden. The kids are cute I liked them.  Chit-chat with the old friends were really fun.  During conversation one of the friends mentioned, 'Why should I try to be nice to you now? We are friends for more than 20 years!'  Yeah, right.  

I have been feeling I have come too far.  I have thought I can't be back to the past any more.  I have changed. However, The friends made me feel like I am myself in the past.  It felt really good.  

They have kids and I couldn't get into their kids talk today. I still had fun.  

 

I thought it is about time for me to change my mind.  I should get over my own sense of inferiority. 

The world is just there no matter how I like it or not. The important thing is how I recognize.  I think it should be better looking on the bright side of it.