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January 25, 2013 /

 

As a matter of fact, I have been tired of relationships with people. By reading the former post "moral harassment", you will understand why. 

I am reluctant to talk about myself to other people. I can't tell anyone about anything, from my interests to the things I worry about, because I am scared of what they would think after lestening to me. You may think I am too obsessed. I know! But I can't stop myself from worrying!

However, something has changed in me recently. Maybe I am getting over it. I guess it was good for me to quit my job. So I gathered my courage and told some friends about a bit of my real self. 

Actually I was terrified to death until I got their reply. It turned out they were very kind, warm and supportive. I sighed in relief. 

In the past, I was so naive that I hardly doubt every single people in the world. I used to think that every relationship depends on my attitude. If the relationship didn't go well, I thought it would be me who should make it better. If I did wrong, of course I should. But there actually are some people who try to trick you and take advantage of you. 

Now I learnt that I must sense spitefulness. I should prepare for it before I get harmed. Those kind of people are not so many and I guess I can find it.

Also I learnt that I should be dignified. I used to behave cowardly so those people tried to give me a final blow. I should have fight back if I thought it was unfair.

Anyway, I realized I don't have to be afraid of all the people. Most of them are sensible like those who gave me a warm reply. I want to thank them, really appreciate it.