Mar.4, 2005
I have had a heavy headache all along today...
I went to bed at around midnight last night but couldn't sleep. Obviously, I was short of sleep and that caused the headache...
When I tried to sleep, the table lamp was on.
I always keep it on when Yoshi stays up studying late at night so that he can get enough light to see the way to bed. I usually have no problem with the light but sometimes it disturbs me. And it was the night it kept me awake...
I was slightly light-headed. All of a sudden, I found that I haven't felt this way for a long time. I didn't regularly get enough sleep before get married and came to Canada. Specifically, when I was working as a shop manager of a fast-food cafe.
To think back, I was trying to be responsible like crazy because I had never been in a position like that before. I got promoted from a mare part-time worker and all my friend-coworkers turned into my employees in one day. It was so confusing to treat them, you know. I had no idea where to draw a border between friends and employees. I ended up treating them more like friends. That means that I took things too emotionally. For example, someone's kid got a fever and was absent from school. She wanted to have a day off to look after her kid. I felt for her situation and always accepted her request. Of course I got someone to fill in the sift as much as I could but it is not always possible. Whenever no one could fill in, I did. Naturally, I had my days off less and less.
Not only the matter of working hours, but also there were many errands to run. I should have had someone help me but I was not sure which work I should give. The former manager did all the things by his own so I felt like it was all my responsibility. Anyway,
Remembering how physically and psychologically unhealthy I was, I was suddenly grateful for the life here in Canada with Yoshi. He told me what quality time is about. It was so eye-opening to me.
I used to be insanely workaholic. I found myself worthy only when I got works perfectly done. But now I know I was wrong.
What do you work for? You work for yourself, right? You work for your better life, not for your company or co-workers.
I have had a heavy headache all along today...
I went to bed at around midnight last night but couldn't sleep. Obviously, I was short of sleep and that caused the headache...
When I tried to sleep, the table lamp was on.
I always keep it on when Yoshi stays up studying late at night so that he can get enough light to see the way to bed. I usually have no problem with the light but sometimes it disturbs me. And it was the night it kept me awake...
I was slightly light-headed. All of a sudden, I found that I haven't felt this way for a long time. I didn't regularly get enough sleep before get married and came to Canada. Specifically, when I was working as a shop manager of a fast-food cafe.
To think back, I was trying to be responsible like crazy because I had never been in a position like that before. I got promoted from a mare part-time worker and all my friend-coworkers turned into my employees in one day. It was so confusing to treat them, you know. I had no idea where to draw a border between friends and employees. I ended up treating them more like friends. That means that I took things too emotionally. For example, someone's kid got a fever and was absent from school. She wanted to have a day off to look after her kid. I felt for her situation and always accepted her request. Of course I got someone to fill in the sift as much as I could but it is not always possible. Whenever no one could fill in, I did. Naturally, I had my days off less and less.
Not only the matter of working hours, but also there were many errands to run. I should have had someone help me but I was not sure which work I should give. The former manager did all the things by his own so I felt like it was all my responsibility. Anyway,
Remembering how physically and psychologically unhealthy I was, I was suddenly grateful for the life here in Canada with Yoshi. He told me what quality time is about. It was so eye-opening to me.
I used to be insanely workaholic. I found myself worthy only when I got works perfectly done. But now I know I was wrong.
What do you work for? You work for yourself, right? You work for your better life, not for your company or co-workers.
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