how do you live your life?

Oct 30, 2007 /

What a philosophycal head line, isn't it?

Before I married, I used to ask married friends how they knew their husband/wife was a right person for them. I was so curious how they made the decition to get married. At the time I was really not sure if I could find only one among billions in the world.
One told me that I would know when time comes. Another told me she wanted to get married till 25. And one guy told me that either the woman is a right person or not, or he really likes her or not, people around them would encourage and made them go for the wedding anyway, and then after all he found himself married. (which I thought it was the least possibility I would take.)
Well, it turned out I found one TRUE LOVE though, heh, heh.
I decided to get married with Yoshi with no hesitation at all. Not a finger tip or a grain of salt. Heh, heh.
Anyways, my question about marriage was answered.

Now I have this question to all who live their own life.
"how do you live your life?"
Maybe bacause my life has just been fulfilling. So I have too much time to think trifling stuff. If I have a child or two, I would not have a room to consider about this. Or maybe because I turn my mid 30s, I am not as healthy as myself in my 20s both phisically and mentally.
I cannot be interested in anything for a long time. I try to concentrate on something that should be interesting but I get tired very easily. Is this just nomal condition? I do not know..

Changing career is one thing I tried this time. Working at Starbucks, I learn how to be a barista. That is what I meant to do at Starbucks and I am sure I will obtain the skills if I keep working there. That is exactly what I wanted.
Only, it is not fun...
I cannot help but finding myself tired working there..

Is it just brain chemical kind of thing? Should I take Chinese herb or something to soothe?