Oct 21, 2005 
All the take-over has been done and the predecessor left last Friday. I am now on my own at work. ...... I am damn nervous everyday!!! I was so scared if I make some kind of mistakes and am screwed up...
At my first job, which was a bank clark by the way, the first year of mine was just miserable. I was a spoiled irresponsible slowpoke who kept making mistakes. I found myself useless and hopeless...... It was only my immaturity that got me in troubles and I learnt a lot from those bitter lessons. I learnt how to be responsible. It was quite an experience.
However,
It gave me nasty trauma too. I am now afraid of making mistakes. No matter how small it is. I get almost petrified and my heart is squashed and crumpled "every time." Yes, I mean it. Like I have a phobia...
Well,
I haven't made a fatal mistake yet but --- you would call me timid --- I am so scared everyday... scared to death... sigh... Every weekend in the past two months, I was just whining like, "I can't do it... I can't ... I don't wanna go to work.. I wanna die... " Sorry Yoshi... you are a victim.
I am not sure if I can really make it but I am struggling.
Some people came from U.S. subsidiary this Tuesday. It was quite interesting talking to those people. They are friendly yet hot stuffs. I found this job interesting for the first time since I started working.
... This is only between us that I had so gotten cold feet before they came..
heheh,
All the take-over has been done and the predecessor left last Friday. I am now on my own at work. ...... I am damn nervous everyday!!! I was so scared if I make some kind of mistakes and am screwed up...
At my first job, which was a bank clark by the way, the first year of mine was just miserable. I was a spoiled irresponsible slowpoke who kept making mistakes. I found myself useless and hopeless...... It was only my immaturity that got me in troubles and I learnt a lot from those bitter lessons. I learnt how to be responsible. It was quite an experience.
However,
It gave me nasty trauma too. I am now afraid of making mistakes. No matter how small it is. I get almost petrified and my heart is squashed and crumpled "every time." Yes, I mean it. Like I have a phobia...
Well,
I haven't made a fatal mistake yet but --- you would call me timid --- I am so scared everyday... scared to death... sigh... Every weekend in the past two months, I was just whining like, "I can't do it... I can't ... I don't wanna go to work.. I wanna die... " Sorry Yoshi... you are a victim.
I am not sure if I can really make it but I am struggling.
Some people came from U.S. subsidiary this Tuesday. It was quite interesting talking to those people. They are friendly yet hot stuffs. I found this job interesting for the first time since I started working.
... This is only between us that I had so gotten cold feet before they came..
heheh,
I can’t help you, but I understand how you feel.
Sassia… I hope your mind continue to be happy.
It encourages me when somebody understand what I feel.
I think I should consider myself "wise" rather than "timid," yes? Over many experiences, some might be bitter or maybe sweet, we all become wiser. Once you are tripped on a pebble, you will be more careful of your feet. That's the way it is..
I will try to be more optimistic!! I promise!!