giri giri

this semester, apparently i became a "giri giri girl".

I was really upset in lab cos i didnt have enough time to print out an assignment.
but finally, I submitted it. fu-.
I was running from Ih to building 9. I was really girigiri.
but (this is an excuse) i was supposed to work from 2, so i had to hand it earlier.

Today was the last day for me to work with Mi** chan and Fu**san. We started working almost the same time, like after the turn of the year. so i felt somewhat lonely.

On the way back to IH, I looked back on my life. And I thought I am lucky to be here.
these days im easy to get sentimental.
Is it because i get old? or Im dying?
Anyway, i felt Im happy to be alive.

All the stupid things i thought, all the mistakes i made today may be due to the lack of sleep.
But I dont think today was a bad day.

nightmare on anzac day

I had a bad dream.
It started like....

I got into the situation that I have to leave Australia for Japan as soon as possible(that is NOW in real time). I didnt know the reason why. maybe because my mom told me to.
There was no enough time to say goodbye to everyone. and after going back to Japan, I suddenly remembered I havent finished exams in UQ. But my mom said "oh, you can take tests here, didn't I say so?"
iwas confused. why can she say that?? I didnt attend the class in Japan at all...
I cant remember how this dream ended like.
but I remember i found Japanese TVs were quite funny, felt comfortable in kotatsu.

strangely realistic dream, isnt it??


when i analyse this, this may show how much i feel uneasy about going back to Japan. But, at the same time, part of me wants to go back(and watch TV, warm myself in a kotatsu...it isnt winter in Japan any more though).

I should have written about ANZAC DAY, but i couldnt help writing very personal stuff. sorry

essay

because of my lack of mental demarcation(?), i havent finished the essay yet. im pabo eyo.

today was Clai** chan's birthday. happy 20!

resolution

the rash was diagnosed to be "shingles" by a doctor.
but my back is getting better.

i left my work earlier on friday because my back terribly ached. and they gave me Saturday-off. i was sorry for that...but it was really good for me. yokatta, yokatta.

i went to Na**y-O's house on Sat and Sun for recuperation(?). It was quite good cos i could sleep well saturday night after a long sleepless(?) night. i helped cleaning for inspectation of her house. cooked katsu curry together. yummy. had a thrilling drive to the Hellensvale station. it was quite fun time(honestly).
and last night i went to house warming party near here. spent a very Japanese time. i ate tonkatsu again, which was wicked good. was fun....?

then, ive decided.
i will be stuck in my room (or library) to research and write essay(s) until finishing all.
so, please dont try to find me...

rash

Ive got a rash on my back. it is verrrrry itchy!!!
i remember that ive had this kind of stuff before, just the same season as now. between summer and autumn,,,so i guess the cause is the change of temperature. Anyway, it really prevents me from studying(its true!)

BTW the Easter holiday is coming soon. So people look somewhat in festive mood.(?) Many aussies are going back to their home, so Ih will be very quiet.
As for me, there is no big plans so far. I could make plan to go somewhere long distance from here, but i dare not. maybe because im lazy. that said, i am working on weekend as usual, EVEN on Good Friday(when all the shops are closed!). I wonder why Japanese people dont want to have a rest..?
anyway, im staying in IH, working on assignments!! study mood!!
and Ive been busy these days(didn't look busy?? for me, it was busy), so i can get a rest during holiday!

Have a happy easter everyone!!