mmm

It seems that verything is gonna be difficult.

Yesterday I fell asleep reading course material with light on....

Today I went to see my tutor to hold a consultation about tutorial tomorrow. She is a nice person but I could not even ask what i wanted to know because of my english problem and lack of confidence. She gave me a lot of hints but it took me a long time to give responce. I guess she was in disgust.
I am afraid tomorrow's tutorial...Though I know that worries make it worse....
I was so depressed and at the lunch time, i could not talk to anybody. I felt i could not understand people talking worse than usual...
to make matters worse, in the tutorial of Writing(which everyone says easy), i could not speak much...teribble.

But I joined Choir and it made me feel better.(still cannot blend in, though)
After that, I wrote script for tommorow and had it checked.
I had to finish another essayplan but had not finished yet. To show spirit to write, i did my fringe up and roll up into a ball. To watch my "ball" on my head, my neibours laughed.
Claire called that "knob" and mocked, saying "it is a rader for communicating with motherland"(communist stuff) I was pissed off but even tease gave me energy to get angry. I was so cheerless today...

BTW Claire was also stressed with study today.i met her mother!

assignment

i do not want to study any more...
However, due day is coming...
i want to get out of this situation...!!
i also have to prepare for tomorrow from now..gee


I did not speak engish so much today.
it is a problem....
Although i write an essay about communication i am a terrible communicator...

so much grumbling....

enough!

River Festival

yesterday i couldnt sleep well, but got up at brekkie time to go to conversation class. miracle!

Actually this class was the last one i have in this semester!
time flies....
We had a debate about Refusee issue in the US now. "does G.W.Bush should ask other country to donate aid?"
I was in the Against side. I gave opinion, but i think it was not enough... After the class, we had a small tea party with another writing class. there i talked with a German girl who was in the same class. we didnt talk so much in the class but today we can talk a lot. and she said,"you are not quiet than before. at the first class, you were soooooo quiet!"

Can i take it for good words? i mean...is it progress? maybe i sould think positively!!


today is Brisbane's river fest.
We went to southbank to see fireworks.
the fireworks were not like Japanese ones, but nice.
I got tired because there were so many people...and i felt it difficult to move in the group. i dont usually like act as a group.
Anyway i enjyoyed the day.

Have to study but i will watch movie from now.....

open

I didnt do much today.
I got up so late...and started my assignments, but didnt get on well..
I really have do tomorrow!!!!Coz i have to prepare for the next tuto's presentation(really small one, though)....and have to hand in the essayplan by Wed...I havent done anything about this yet.. ;-(

By the way, these days my tummy seems like getting bigger and bigger. When i put on my jeans, i feel it is a bit tight! its definitely because of IH food.

Ummm, is it good thing or bad thing...?

Actually, before coming here, I was thinking that "i will put on my weight in Australia and be glamoours(voluptuous?)!"
But its not my anticipation. I got flesh only in tummy...

Maybe I should do some excercise from now.
Strengthen my abdominal muscles!!!!

Today i finally opened my blog to IH people. i get so embarrassed when i imagine that they read my stupid grumbly...

quota復活

ご無沙汰しておりました。ご存知のとおり（？）インターネットのクオタが尽きて、月初めまで更新できなかったのです。あぁ。
なんか、ここはシステムが整ってるようで整ってない。

でも、これといって書くこともなかった（と思う）ので、いっか。
あっ、この間ラジオを購入しました。listening向上のため・・・
今日は、How's your life going?"と"how have you been keeping?"を聞き返しました。もう１ヶ月以上経ってるっての。挨拶だっての。。

そろそろrevolutionを起こしたい今日この頃です。

午前中は授業まで午後はなしでした。こもってしっかりreadingをしました。でもぜんぜん進まん。essay planを立てないとそろそろちゃばい。
そうそう、collegeのchoir（コーラス）に参加しているのですが、今日はみんな元気がなかった。mid sem exam やessay に追われている模様。
私もなんだが。テストはないけど、今週来週続けてessay提出。。
明日はぜったい書き始めます！！