When was last time I wrote " BLOG"

Even I haven't open this blog. I need to feel to write something and today is the day.

I started great race season this year. I won Tagaman 2years straight, I was 3rd Xterra Saipan. " Good start'!!
I was invited from friend to join Japan MTB race in the end of April and I was selected as one of candidate of Japan National MTB Team.

I got motivation for MTB and feel like " Never mind running and triathlon" I wanted train 100% for MTB which I never thought I do MTB race.

Unfortunately I pulled my hamstring badly the end of March. Fortunately I didn't have any plan to join running or triathlon race and it was not hurting on the bike.

But day by day it was getting better, even on the bike started hurt. I know why. Because I didn't stop.
Yes, I am stupid but I choose race in Japan in April. I thought after this race, I can rest as no any race plan.

I was 2nd at the race and made me feel " I want to be #1" There was "Japan MTB National Champion" in July.

Yes. I choose race again. I decided " This is it" This is my last chance to be #1 or not.
I had trained hard and focus only MTB. My injury hadn't gotten better as I kept active. Even thought I haven't run.

It was the worst injury I had done for my athletes career. I couldn't even run 10sec, walking hurt but I pushed myself for National Race. I am not smart but if I didn't do this year I regret so bad. If I'm 20 years old, I probably didn't and rest my body for next year. I am not regret what I choose.

I gave all my 100% for this race and had been training hard but I guess burned out before race start.

How many years I am racing? Over 10years but still I am learning something from each race.

Physical was ready, I felt stronger but Mental was not. I couldn't push myself 100%, give my everything during race. I lost this race before I even started. I just wanted finish not competing. Race like this, I am mad so bad myself and sad and many regrets.

Learn from this race
It is very hard to make both Physical and Mental 100% ready for race but it is the most important to do.
When I do, no matter result I will be happy as I give everything from my body and soul.