Happy 10the anniversary! Honey!

WOW! 10? Time flies!
10 years wedding anniversary November 26th.

I still remember the day we married. The day we talked about " at 10 years anniversary, I want to wear wedding dress and have a another big party!"

Guess what, not big party but me and Kevin had a great night.

I cannot live without him. He changed my life, make me better person, giving me laugh in my life, support at race.
I appreciate what he done to me.

He is my husband and my best friend.


Cannot wait for another great years with him!

the start

I had been a little bit depression last few weeks. Specially about thinking relationship with people.

I cannot change someone but I can change myself. Today is the start to change myself "how I want to be as person"

Keep positive, looking forward and smile all the time.

Xterra World Championship

Wow! What a fun race! This is really addictive! Of course in 11years racing triathlon, I got down side few times like " I don't want to do anymore" But The feeling when I cross the finish line bring me back to training or races.

Not every race I feel I did it, I gave all! Some race, I feel " I could push more" "I lost myself to not push hard" It is hard to physical and mental get together. Someday I said " Push more, faster" to my body but body doesn't want to. Someday My body said " I want to go faster" but I don't have mental to push though.

But NOT THIS RACE!

It was " Perfect" race. My mental and physical got together the race day.
The race condition was the HARDEST in the Xterra World championship history in 21 years!

With Over 6ft waves, rain and muddy bike course. But I never give up at all. I kept push from start to the end.
It was one of tough condition I done but it was same for others.
Specially on the bike I almost lost myself due to too much hike with bike, stop for get muddy out from bike but I kept the advice my coach gave me "Keep moving. All from my mind"
I was not fighting against mother nature but I was fighting against me.

When I crossed the finish line, I didn't have anything left. It was all out from my body and soul.
I am very satisfied how I raced even I was 14th on the World.

Next year I will try to be top10 in the World!

When I feel I gave all, no matter place I feel like I won myself.

" The most important thing is winning but taking part. The essential thing in life is not conquering but fighting well"
by Pierre de Coubertin

life is destiny

Xterra World championship in Maui.

It was my 8time and 6time as Pro to do " World Championship"

The life is always "DESTINY" " Happens,good and bad has meaning" That's I always think last few years. Especially if something bad happen to me.

So to do " World Championship" was not my plan few month ago. Because I pulled muscle in March ( It was bad and never heard muscle " SNAP" in my life!) and I had not been running or jogging at all for 3months. It was pain even just walk.

Why took so long?

Because I kept riding bike for MTB National Championship in Japan in July. Yeah,,, I know. Not good idea and I never give this advice to whoever pulled muscle. BUT I really wanted to do this race and I AM NOT regret my decision.

After the race, I took few weeks off and finally I was able to jog without pain. It was slow but happy to go out and do jogging. I started 1miles, 10-12min pace then 2-3miles...

No matter how fast I was just happy I can jog.

Finally I started to be able to run after 4months from injury. Guess what? I decided to go Xterra Japan to try to get my 5th titles in the begging of Sep! I had only a month to train for it. Sounds crazy but if the muscle is not pain, I can push and push my lungs for running!

Finally a week before the Xterra Japan, I felt my running is back. Not 100% but said 85%.

So I booked ticket to go. When I landed in Narita, I got a Message from the race organizer " Race is canceled" Huge typhoon hit the race site. I checked " Yahoo news" right way. I saw the video that Helicopter was trying to rescue people who standing on the roof. Many road were flooding. Whole race town was " collapse" very sadly. Of course it was sad not racing but more than that, It was sad to see the town and so many local people need help.

Mother nature...

So instead the race, I spent time with Family in Tokyo. It was nice surprised for them too.

Before Xterra Japan, I told Kevin " This is my last Xterra in 2016"

Even thought I received an email from Team unlimited who organizing " Xterra" in the world to come MAUI before Xterra Japan, I already decided to NOT go.

I was training hard for Xterra Japan. Now canceled. ( Payer for the people who live the area)

"Now Where should I bring those effort I had done??"

"MAUI~~!"

My friend told me " after bad thing always good thing coming in our life" This words has been helping me to keep positive for long time.
I also think all happened in my life has something meaning.

Pulled muscle-I could focus MTB and made me how great people can run!
Xterra Japan canceled - Retire at " WORLD!!" at the biggest race a year!

人生の悪いことやついてないこと、そして良いことすべてに意味がありますね。
3月にハムストリングの肉離れ、休めばよいのにどうしてもマウンテンバイク日本選手権に出たく休まなかった。その結果完治が遅く、しかし私はその決断に後悔していません。逆に休んで日本選手権でなかったらとっても後悔してました。

４か月全くランニングができない状態で７月が終わりやっと少しずつジョグ、ランニングができるように。痛みさえなければあとは練習を押すのみ！
ということで走り始めて２週間痛みが出ないのを確認し９月初めの”エクステラJapan"に。５連勝タイトルを狙いに

レース１週間前、やっとランニングもケガの前の８０％くらいの状態に。

サー飛行機に乗って！　成田に着いた瞬間に１通のメールが届き”レースはキャンセルです”
ネットのニュースを見ると”北海道南富良野台風直撃！”　とても悲しい映像ばかりでした。

とても残念でしたが今はレースよりも住民の方々の安否が先です。

Japanの前に”今年はMauiの世界戦は行かない”と決め、Japanのみ！と意気込んでいましたがやはりぽっかり穴が開き、どこかにぶつけたい！

と、いうことで”Maui"決定。

もしJapanやっていたらMauiに行ってなかったのは確実。Mauiのレースから帰ってきましたが本当に行ってよかった！世界トップの選手とレースができてよかった！

その時は悲しくても”あ～なんで！”と思うけどでもそれが何かこの先のことを意味してるっていつも思うようにしています。（出来るだけ！）

When was last time I wrote " BLOG"

Even I haven't open this blog. I need to feel to write something and today is the day.

I started great race season this year. I won Tagaman 2years straight, I was 3rd Xterra Saipan. " Good start'!!
I was invited from friend to join Japan MTB race in the end of April and I was selected as one of candidate of Japan National MTB Team.

I got motivation for MTB and feel like " Never mind running and triathlon" I wanted train 100% for MTB which I never thought I do MTB race.

Unfortunately I pulled my hamstring badly the end of March. Fortunately I didn't have any plan to join running or triathlon race and it was not hurting on the bike.

But day by day it was getting better, even on the bike started hurt. I know why. Because I didn't stop.
Yes, I am stupid but I choose race in Japan in April. I thought after this race, I can rest as no any race plan.

I was 2nd at the race and made me feel " I want to be #1" There was "Japan MTB National Champion" in July.

Yes. I choose race again. I decided " This is it" This is my last chance to be #1 or not.
I had trained hard and focus only MTB. My injury hadn't gotten better as I kept active. Even thought I haven't run.

It was the worst injury I had done for my athletes career. I couldn't even run 10sec, walking hurt but I pushed myself for National Race. I am not smart but if I didn't do this year I regret so bad. If I'm 20 years old, I probably didn't and rest my body for next year. I am not regret what I choose.

I gave all my 100% for this race and had been training hard but I guess burned out before race start.

How many years I am racing? Over 10years but still I am learning something from each race.

Physical was ready, I felt stronger but Mental was not. I couldn't push myself 100%, give my everything during race. I lost this race before I even started. I just wanted finish not competing. Race like this, I am mad so bad myself and sad and many regrets.

Learn from this race
It is very hard to make both Physical and Mental 100% ready for race but it is the most important to do.
When I do, no matter result I will be happy as I give everything from my body and soul.