以前のフラスタジオをやめて新しい教室にうつったのが
去年の夏のおわり。
前のスタジオでの出来事がどうしても振り切れず、
ここ半年間、とってもつらかった。
また同じような事が起きるのではないか。
また傷つくような事が起きるのではないか。
レッスンの前になるとストレスでボロボロの私。
どうしてもさぼる理由ばかりを探してしまうの。
もうフラをやめようとずっとずっと考えてきた。
ハワイアンミュージックも聞けない。
つらくて聞けないの。
でも、やっとやっと乗り越えられそう。
なんか、今日はっきり感じた。
フラ、楽しいって。
もっと続けたいって。
もっと勉強したいって。
今のお教室の皆さん、先生、クム、そして、
はげましてくれた友達、家族。
本当にありがとう。
フラの話を読んでくれていたみなさんにもありがとう。
I think, finally I can get over that. This time, it is true. Today, I felt I really like this hula studio. I felt I want to learn more. This studio, they don’t run the hula studio for the money, they really want to share their hula. That is the only the reason. They always think what we should learn from them and they try really hard to teach us.
Actually, I really couldn’t forget about the ex-hula studio. I couldn’t understand why they did pull my legs down with stupid selfish reasons. But I heard that one of the instructors who I trust has quit. And that time she said she’s never, never going to dance hula again. That was not only her. When another instructor quit last spring, she stopped dancing hula, too. Both of them, I really like. They were always honest and kind. Their hula is beautiful. They don’t dance for showing somebody.
I think ex-teacher and staff members are horrible. They are evil people. But if I think about them too much, there is no exit. I should just forget about that and I try not to be like those people. Then, I can be strong. And next time if the same kind of people came up to me, I should know how I can escape.