急行特急は行く…

There are friends surrounding me nowadays.They are powerful and strong.I can't win them and they won't disappear from me.
I don't want to fight them but they want to because they dislike or hate me.Whythey are surrounding me. Why the friend appears me or make me uncomfortableand of course I dislike or hate me and want to get out from my world but they are stay with me or surrounding me.
I want to pull out or runaway from them and it is easy but difficult. I can't tell about it because just I don't want to do so.But the time I have to pull out will come soon. I know it it's not wonder but there isn't no collecting way. If there is, that is very difficult to do so for me.The time is just coming and I have no way to resolve it.

If the naive works good it sometimes help you live.
I know it isn't true but if the naive works good,some persons think it is honesty.
I think the honesty is a naive.
I lost my naive but I don't know when it was lost.
Sometimes I don't like the naive because I am not honesty.
Everybody tend to like honesty.I don't know why but I think it is easy to handle or operate or to get in touch with.
Where is my honesty or where I forgot my honesty?
I sometime the naive or honesty is a good childish.I dislike the good childish because I wasn't so or didn't to became it.
I don't want to think the naive or the honesty is important to live but the answeris true.I envy that the man who has the naive or the honesty and that is my best model however I don't want to like it or to be it.
I am a strange man so I want to go to the place where I stand well forever.I want to get out of this real.My real days are continue to worse and the fiend surround me.I want to make my fiend disappeared but it is only my foolish dream.

るか「おはようごさいます。モーニングオンマンデー、本日は初めて登場します、るか、と言います。性別は女です。普段は声関係で、お仕事してます。７月１５日海の日ですので、臨時出演となりました。普段は聴かない番組なので、よく解らないです」
アドバイザーイドワイザー「また新たなＤＪの到来ですか。ご苦労様です」
るか「あれ、どこから出て来たんですか？」
るアドバイザーイドワイザー「机の中からだったりして」
るか「怖いこと言われますね」
アドバイザーイドワイザー「そう台本に書いてありますのよ」
るか「便利なんですね。台本」
アドバイザーイドワイザー「いやそうでもないよ。毎回やってるもんだから、おざなりになること、請け合い。脳内とろけて夏はあちーです」
るか「ははあ」
アドバイザーイドワイザー「理解不能がこの番組なんですのよ、るかさん。また来てくださいよ、時間となりました」
るか「はい。あっと言う間でしたが、今日が皆様にとって、良い祝日となりますように。お相手は、るかでした」