I will never be able to retake these photos.

July 24th and 25th, 2011, Chion-in Temple, Yuzen-en Temple, and Shoren-in Temple, accompanied by George Harrison's ♬Marwa Blues♬.

I was surprised when I was putting together the photo book.
The dates were 24th and July 25th, 2011.
It is all the more so because, on the 25th, I visited Shoren-in Temple, Chion-in Temple, Yuzen-en Temple, and Chishaku-in Temple.

I never imagined that I would be here on this day. 

I was also surprised to find out that I had gone to take photos of the gardens of Chishaku-in Temple afterward. 

What's more, the person accompanying me at Chishaku-in Temple took several photos of me with the catheter still attached to my neck, so it was even more surprising. 

I wish I could show them to everyone, but since I'm not a public figure or a celebrity, I won't post them.

When I was 20 years old, I was having an eel lunch at Takashimaya in Tokyo, and a genuine Edokko lady said to me, "You've got a good face, so don't go to Kyoto University; go to Haiyuza instead." 

I was pleased with myself, even though I thought I looked good. 

"I found something incredible..." "Just tell me the name of the disease." 

"Acute myeloid leukemia..."

I had always told my friends that I was an "infinite thinker who wants to live forever." 

But as I mentioned before, the moment I heard the name of the disease, I was ready to die. 

When the director, a graduate of Kyoto University's Faculty of Medicine, and several of his junior doctors visited my hospital room as part of their rounds, I simply said, "I have things I have to do, so I can't die now. So please help me. Please."

Anyway, there's nothing I can do, so I just have to trust them, feel a connection with them, and leave it to them.

I will never be able to retake these photos.